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♥Monday, April 28, 2008♥

do know how to talk about it..


Seem like another day in bbdc, the place i dread most. Looking forward to see him, but at the same time I feel weird as well.

Tubby invited me to join his army friends gathering at blooie’s this thurday, I wonder since when he would invite me, most of the time was just giving me some stupid lies and he himself go ahead, is this what all guys are, when they lost something then they will start to treasure?

Anyway the atmosphere here is weird and making me breathless, I don’t know how to face him when I f I get to see him, it seem that I am making myself so miserable by agreeing to meet at BBDC.

There are sweet memories here, but then there are still a lot of things that I do not wish to remember as well.

Sitting at the same place where I I always see him, he seem to be out of sight. I have the anticipation to see him, but then what will he think?

Will I fall for him again, or I would just go on and pretend none of these ever happen to us. It seem so near yet so far, it break my heart into a million pieces, nobody know exactly what was going on, and neither do i.

My hope are shattered, he won’t be here when I need him, I might just as well be a entertaining object to him only.

Was kind of emotional when I enter the class today, trying my best to put everything that happen yesterday behind, all the things he said, all the things he do, only this way it will not affect me.

My team mate was shocked when I wake up from my dreams, I just shouted let’s start with all the energy I had left and put on a good show.

Deep inside the dark corner, it still hurt a lot, lost and missing the way to my happiness and drowned with sorrow.

This should be the most emotional blog that you guys can ever find in the history of my blog, this is not the real me, I am always happy go lucky and well maybe not, I blame myself for all the thing I can’t do well.

As for bike, I don’t dare to even go for lesson anymore, maybe I am afraid of bumping into him, seem that run away is the only thing I can do now.

How long will I be able to run, I am not sure, but then I still got to face the fact one day that it over and its impossible between us.


THE CUTEST LURVER; ♥